omg...after school reopen, all e teacher were stressin us about e prelim n actual n level... hao sian oh... feel like no tym to study all e sub... can ii jus skip through this two years and became 18?? ii really wish ii could understand all e subjects but im jus lazy to study... hao sian arhx... somemore now is my emo period... still haven over yet lehx... hahax... now even my family were stressin mii... my dad jus now jus told mii tat he envious tat one of his friend de children were all professor n donno wat thingy... i don like tis sia... they jus compare mii n others... cant he think about gud things about mii now??? im oso tryin hard to study le arhx... jus like very sian... n also,mama n papa both keep tellin mii theory wantin mii to quit kfc... ii jus don wish to quit... i nv regret joinin in... n i have a lot of fun ther... met alot of fren... learn many things ther too... jus don wish to quit now... if not will lose contact with them de... unless papa allows mii to go out anytime ... if mid-night cannot nvm... stayin in kfc... maybe oso have a chance to meet him... now i cannot be with him le... at least he treat mii as a fren tok, chat , play, ii won b so sad... wat u did now is only lettin mii disappointed... many ppl askin mii to give up on uu n find a new better guy... but once uu have stepped into my world... its hard to forget you... tellin uu last goodbye was so hurtin... seein you with another her makes mii feel so sad... even though at e beginnin i knew tis will happen , but i still choose to believe uu... ii would willin to try everything for uu.. cos uu r e first to makes mii love so much... ii jus couldnt forget e days we had spend together...

did i sometimes thinks like tat 'if i havent met uu, i wouldnt like you. if i nv like uu, i won b so hurt' ...
really loves uu so much...when can uu b back...
hope uu really tat kind of ppl tat might be possible now...

haix ... haix... i really very sian lehx.... rmb tat i have promise myself not to be so sad... not to think abt strange strange thing tat i shld not do... but when i saw his frenster n msn... i suddenly have all kinds of feelin again... very sad... its so hurt... he nan dao so ai ta mahx?? why she can do it i cannot.... i really bi bu shang her mahx... really sad... when is my turn to have my real happiness... i noe im still young... but... sad lohx.... haix... how... very fan la.. tat girl.... really so li hai ma?? now he even can put her pic or watever sai.... idiot.... idiot!!!

hmmm.... i think im comin back to normal me le bax.... tryin not to be so emo... tryin to smile... but ii wish tat no one will force mii to give up on him.... it is really xin ku de... ii will auto give up when my feelin towards him has faded or another guy appear... ya... is ii fang qi bu liao... but at e same time, is ii don wish to give up... maybe sometimes i will b really sad when ii noe things abt him n his stead or maybe bcos tat we don even wan to face each other...
hmmm... i think ii will be better de.... after a few periods of time... jus very sad lohx...school reopen le maybe ii jus work one day per week bax... cannot slack le... xp
im jus very curious... the ' a simple fren' who r uu? why uu will noe abt him de??noe tat he is a quiet guy??

how ah... in tis blog ii onli say abt sad things... ii onli noe how to say abt sad things but not happy de....

my heart breaks again...today in frenster i jus found tat he gt a new stead... he seems to like her very much... things happen can say in frenster...go out meet oso got... wat can ii do... ii really donno how le... heart breaks everyday... ii still cannot kan kai.... really... why like tat treat mii... did ii done anything wrong... haix.... like life meaningless like tat... sian...

i have nv regret for lovin you..

i will continue wait till my feelin has faded.......

haix... finally at home use blog le... hahax...
wat should i say now... really very very sad?? sad till i feel tat i really have nth better to do in e world?? i really very xin ku... feelin like cryin out again...
so many day pass le... i still feel sad... cant forget him... i have waited for 1 yr plus le... tot tat these period of tym i nv wasted waitin... can have a gud relationship with him... end up wat happen now le... break up?? though we cannot be gf bf, but now at least be a normal fren with mii, sms tok or joke?? uu promise mii de... how could a man breaks his promise...
i tot tat wat i hav done for uu, uu will really gan dong... ya... you have told mii uu gan dong le... uu hav tried to love mii but uu couldnt make it... is actually u couldnt or uu think uu find a better gal tat uu like le??
i think tat e few scars is not big matter to mii le bax... its jus onli a scars arhx... am i rite?? though its pain.. but my hearts feel more pain... 100 times more pain than tis... but i noe... its not ur fault... bu xi huan means bu xi huan.. love cannot be force... or we will not xin fu de...
tat tym ... i thinkin tat... for uu... i will try my best to learn to cycle... die die must learn... now... at least i noe abit le arhx... tat tym i think tat even fall down oso nvm... my mum scold oso nvm... when i go overseas... everyday at least send uu a takecare msg... even though it will b expensive, i will kana scold by dad... oso nvm... really nvm... but i think... now don have e chance le ba...
really don have le... i have tried my best to do wat a gf shld do... really... i really donno how le...

but... thx for e sweet memories uu have gave mii tat tym... thx...